Struggle Fest Part 2

 No Spoilers: I felt great! 

After struggling to sleep for the past 2 weeks while trying to get myself back into work, today of all days — “it was your last day, of course you felt good” — well… no, not exactly.

I still only had around 6 hours of sleep and kept getting up during the night, but after my breakfast this morning and my 20‑minute break — where I bought a Corner Shop Cheese and Onion Sandwich (they are disgusting… well, I can eat them, so meh) — I also had Transform‑A‑Snack Saucy Barbecue crisps with a Rubicon RAW Raspberry & Blueberry Energy Drink.

Despite it all costing me over £3, I’m not complaining. I got my food, I got my energy, and I felt good throughout the day — which, to me, means a lot.

I didn’t have anything for dinner because I’d already eaten on my break, and my appetite wasn’t there anyway — which was the main thing… until I got out of work, and now I’m hungry. Since this is basically my Friday, I’m going to treat myself to a chicken burger from a takeaway. After that, I’ll see my grandparents and talk for hours until I head home later.

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